The Pits!

Because money and food, especially fresh meat, were in short supply my grandpa got my dad a job down the pit but he only went for two days.  He couldn’t stand the dirt in his hair and under his nails and before we knew it he was off again to get work somewhere else.  He fancied himself as a boxing promoter and so he left us there to follow his dream and said he would come back for us when he had ‘made it’.  My mum hardly came out of her room after that and when she did it was only to fight with her mother-in-law and before long we were off, back to the big city.

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I was feeling suicidal and needing to be fixed.

Then I came across this Site

My feeling they are mixed.

The heading I encountered said that death was ‘not a choice’

And it warned me to stay on the page and ignore my inner voice.

Now three days on I’m better and have thousands of new friends

Who tell me to be positive?

The tunnel, the light, the end.

And all that.  

The trouble is that now I fear,

I’ll never leave my room

My prescription is now over due

But there’s no more doom and gloom.

The internet, it saved my life

At least for now I’m safe.

So now when I need cheering up

I go to Cyber space.

Despair

It crept in like ivy and entered my soul

Settling like grey, deathly dust.

I barely recognise the beautiful eyes of my daughter

Sunken into her sad memory of me.

This causes lightness in my chest

Coupled with the pounding of blood it pains my heart

Which is still beating

Just.

We used to share such joy and happiness

Now we all cry alone.

My memory now lives apart from me.

I call upon it now and then to help me understand

The fundamental things I used to do

Like wash or touch my wedding band.

The Mental Pause, Rusty Bernard

The Mental Pause, Rusty Bernard

Hello Again!

Female! 

Or are you asking how do I feel about sex?  I think I understand what you mean, sex in the biological sense.  Well, I think sex is marvellous and has many different purposes.  If you think about it, none of us would exist if we didn’t have sex, eh Tam?

It really is remarkable that it has been about for so long and people are still so interested in it.  Every single person I know has, at some time or another, been affected by it in some way, good or bad.  Some married people I know even seem to still enjoy it after they have children, which will come as a shock to a few, mainly Catholics, who think that the absolute purpose of it is to procreate.

Which brings me to the people who find themselves pregnant and it comes as a big surprise to them.  Have they never looked in a bloody dictionary?  Even the people who see it as recreational should be aware of the literal consequences in case of a mishap.  It is after all ‘an essential element of human biology and psychology’.  I read that in Wikipedia so it must be true.  Why do we indulge in something so important, with such life changing implications, without doing at least a bit of research first?  No, it all becomes about emotion, uncontrollable passion and sometimes even love.

The Mental Pause

Women and The Mental Pause: The Mental Pause

Women and The Mental Pause: The Mental Pause: "Rusty Bernard was born in Glasgow but pretends it's NYC. She has been abandoned by her Libido, hormones and ginger hair. In writing The ..."

The Mental Pause

 The door closes and it's just me, my madness, Tam  and his clipboard.  Come in and listen till your heart is content!

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